Defeated

This week is cruel for me.

I got defeated in many ways possible.

Physically, my body is defeated. Got sick due to overload work (also PMS) since Monday. Lost my voice last Friday. Still coughing all the time now.

Professionally, I got defeated by my colleagues. It is promotion cycle this week and my name wasn’t there on the promotees list. But my colleagues’ names were. They are much younger than me, so I just feel worse. Not sure who’s in the wrong, the system or myself.

And finally, I got defeated in life because one of my best friend is just getting married. It was a beautiful wedding in Bali. Four other best friends are coming. They were happy and gorgeous. Meanwhile I sit here in my room writing this tragic blogpost.

I mean I know marriage is not an achievement what so ever, I don’t care at all. It’s just *sigh* I lost another good friend now. It’s sad.

My life is a complete sorrow right now. I don’t know how to fix it. I’m sad and tired.

The only thing keeps me alive is the fact that I am going to China for 10 days of holiday in 5 days. But that also I can’t enjoy fully. Financial situation.

Okay where’s my meds?