This week is cruel for me.
I got defeated in many ways possible.
Physically, my body is defeated. Got sick due to
overload work (also PMS) since Monday. Lost my voice last Friday. Still coughing
all the time now.
Professionally, I got defeated by my colleagues. It is
promotion cycle this week and my name wasn’t there on the promotees list. But my
colleagues’ names were. They are much younger than me, so I just feel worse. Not
sure who’s in the wrong, the system or myself.
And finally, I got defeated in life because one of my
best friend is just getting married. It was a beautiful wedding in Bali. Four
other best friends are coming. They were happy and gorgeous. Meanwhile I sit
here in my room writing this tragic blogpost.
I mean I know marriage is not an achievement what so
ever, I don’t care at all. It’s just *sigh* I lost another good friend now. It’s
sad.
My life is a complete sorrow right now. I don’t know
how to fix it. I’m sad and tired.
The only thing keeps me alive is the fact that I am
going to China for 10 days of holiday in 5 days. But that also I can’t enjoy
fully. Financial situation.
Okay where’s my meds?
