I hate myself for being too...

c.a.r.e.l.e.s.s


For heaven sake I don’t know why these things happened to me from all of the sudden. Last week I found out that I lost my glasses, (I know I sound like Velma, ain’t I?) And yesterday I’d just realized my student card is also missing! OMG! What’s happening to me?

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I feel so awful. I’m talking about my glasses. The glasses my Mom’s bought me three years ago when I selfishly asked for one more glasses that will make me look more stylish, more fashionable or sum. In fact, it gave me nothing.. and now it’s missing.. it’s just.. awful..

I feel terrible. It’s about my student card. That tiny yellow card I’ve been relied on this far. That old scratched card that always saves me in every burning situation, whether it’s because of me bringing it or the title lies within, I don’t know.. I never care to know.. and now it’s missing.. it’s just.. terrible..

What’s worse is I don’t even remember when the last time I saw those things. They’re just disappear.. leaving me there, guilty on its highest place.

I’m a vain. Feeling bad of myself almost every morning when I open my eyes. Couldn’t bear to keep remembering those two biggest mistakes, haunting me for the past two weeks..

And I’m a loser. I don’t have enough guts to tell my parents, never try to be more responsible as well..

I’m going back pretending that I’m strong. I always think I could face this alone, always believe I’ll survive. In fact, I’m standing there, doing nothing but regret..

I hate myself for being too careless.